let's just stop the tape, rewind and press play to afew months ago. April 21/08. please don't ask me how i remember the date. i have a good memory or i'm a just an over-obsessed stalker, you choose. on that day me and my friend sheldon were on our "downtown outtings" a.k.a"getting lost tonight". we decided that we wanted to watch a movie at Scotiabank theatre to watch "forgetting sarah marshall" with our friend devon who had castpasses (meaning he worked their and we were getting in for free). as we were hanging outside near the movie theatre entrance we saw the most beautiful guy sweeping the floors and cleaning the washrooms. both of my gay friends had a crush on them especially sheldon. so devon asked me to chop the guy for fun. so i called the beautiful guy over and asked him his name/number etc. he told me his name was Galen (prononced Jaylen). he said "i'll be expecting your call" with a little wink and a smile. every since that, he had my heart. days go by and me and him would talk about everything, turns out that he wasn't gay (YEAH for me, although sheldon was upset about galen not being gay). Galen would help me with my problems, tell me how beautiful i was, hang out with me, we even liked the same music, and he knew my favourite color without me telling him (yellow). but wait, slow down.. he had.. and get this... A GIRL FRIEND?!?. a girlfriend of 2 years as of April/25 (which just so happened to be me and my ex's one month anniversersy.. but i'll save that story for another time). but eventually they broke up around the beginning of June which made me extreamly content because i thought he was gunna be all mine. after hanging out some more times and having late-night conversations on the telephone, i decided that i wanted to be more open with him telling him how i feel and whatnot. i told him that he was the one and that i never felt this close to anyone and that i never met a guy like him before in my 16 year old life. he didn't respond. i send him some more messages the next day saying "what are you doing today?, wanna watch the love guru, etc,etc.". no responce. i was thinking okay.. maybe he lost his phone or something? :S. the next day he writes "let me give you some advice for the future, when you send someone 12 text messages, it either means that your scaring them away, or their
JUST NOT INTERESTED". after recieving that text message i was in total shock. i could feel my heart litterally breaking in half.. and i collasped on my bed and just started crying. more of his text messages came flodding through my inbox saying how clingy and needy i am of a person and that he wants nothing to do with me. i messaged him saying that i wanted to rather talk to him and person but he was saying that if he did see me it would be out of pity. it took me a week to get over it..to get over him.. to move on with my life.. i'm still kinda sad about it because he was suppose to be my "summer love". you know that whole scene from Grease? "
tell me more, tell me more" (8). my friends were suppose to be asking me that about him and i was suppose to sing "
summer days drifting away to ah-oh those summer nights" (8). i had the whole fairytale planned out in my head and the hardest thing was to let go of something that coulda, woulda, shoulda, but didn't.. happen.
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